Mom's Night Out...

I went to Acapulco's tonight with my playgroup for MNO. This is the first time I had gone to a MNO. It was nice seeing them again, but I don't think I'll go again.

It was really distressing that I couldn't hear anyone's conversation enough to contribute. I just sat there and sipped my drink and ate my food. I would look from one mom's lips to another trying to keep track of the conversation, but it was just so tiring. An hour into it I wanted to leave. I ended up staying two hours and left with the first group of women that left.

I have a feeling that they think I was being rude. It is embarrassing to have people repeat everything all the time. I don't know these women well enough to ask them to, or to let them know what is going on. I know for those not in my shoes it may seem silly. But I don't want to be seen as different or to be coddled. I guess I just have to accept that there are some places I'm not going to be able to go if I want to be able to communicate with anyone.

But I don't want to accept that and it just gets me mad. I freaking hate this. And I hate that I'm crying over it.